I think I've made a semi-major discovery tonight. The difference between friends and acquaintances lies in the ability to say "no".
A friend of mine recently broke-up with her boyfriend of 6 months. It wasn't particularly a surprise to most of us, but anytime a relationship ends, it is sure to be followed with some "alone" time needed by one or both parties.
When we were discussing how she was handling the breakup, she mentioned that she had spoken to one of our friends. She told this person that, while she appreciated the support she would get, she needed a few days to collect her thoughts and process what was happening. Our friend responded to her request with several text messages questioning why she couldn't spend time with friends right now. She also added that, if my friend was going to be alone, she would "miss out" on several upcoming gatherings and that she would probably regret it later.
My friend explained that she appreciated the fact that she could call me anytime, that I would always be there for her, and that I respected her request to be left alone for a few days. She knows that when she sends me a text about grabbing a drink or an upcoming happy hour, I will do my best to make it. If I can't, she doesn't worry about why I'm unavailable or whether or not we will see each other again. Our friendship is not based on compliance to her requests, but rather on the security that we like each other for who we are and we respect each other's lives. I can tell her "no" as many times as I need to and she will not take it personally...our friendship is deeper than that. I am allowed to have my own opinion...and with her, it counts for something. I cannot only be myself with her and not be afraid about it...it is encouraged and supported.
Tonight I was at a party with a group of friends whom I have known for just over 3 years. A couple of them asked about what had happened with Mike. I told them that I had stepped away from him for now so that he could do what he needed to do for himself. I asked that they be supportive of him as they were friends to both of us. Both Mike and I need to be supported in different ways...but I asked them to not focus on me and instead spend the time with him. I did this because I know that they love me and will be there when I call. They don't need to be informed of every detail, or even feel like they are key players in the drama of my life. They love me for who I am...and they will always be there to support me when I need them. They know that when I ask for something of them...I don't do so lightly. They love me and respect who I am...more than their need for attention.
That's when it hit me...the difference between friends and acquaintances.
I have a couple of people in my life who won't take "no" for an answer. They aren't bad people...they just don't genuinely love or care about me. They don't really listen to anything that I have to say and they certainly don't put any thought into how I'm feeling...unless they can somehow manipulate it to their advantage. When I'm talking, instead of listening, they spend their time trying to figure out how to spin the conversation back toward them. They become upset when they aren't the focus of my every free moment, and they become vicious when I don't keep them informed and involved in the details of my life. They do everything that they can to control my answers, guide my direction, and give themselves credit in every decision that I make. They have a "knack" for making everything that I say become about them. They are associated with me because of what I can give to them or what I can do to make them feel good about themselves...regardless what it costs me. I have to ask myself, "how did I ever drown in someone so shallow?"
These people are acquaintances...and I'm cutting them lose.
